It's the end of the World... AGAIN...

Okay, so at this point everyone’s heard of the End of the World. It’s also called the Rapture, the Second Coming of Christ or the Zombie Apocalypse. World ends, we all die and go to where ever people go when they die. Whatever you want to call it, it’s bound to happen eventually, I’m sure. But let’s not get carried away people.
Religion wise Christians are my favorite about the end of the world. They said the world would end on June 6, 2006 after all three sixes is the sign of Satan. Totally the end of the world. It’s now 2011. Safe to say, it didn’t happen. Now some crazy guy predicted the Rapture would happen on May 21, 2011. He even had a time, though no one can agree on the time, since I’ve heard at least three. What’s his proof? Something about it says so in the Bible.
I’m not really religious, so I might be a little wrong here, but didn’t Jesus say we wouldn’t know when he was coming back? So if we don’t know when he’s coming back, how do we have a date for the end of the world? I’m sure it makes sense somehow...
Then there’s the scientific angle for the non-religious people. Scientist predict that the world is going to end in 2012, there’s even a movie about it! I’m curious, if these scientists are soooo good at predicting mother nature, how the hell did Hati happen? Or Japan? Or the huge tornadoes that ripped through the South April 27th? Oh right, we CAN’T predict what’s going to happen in Nature years prior.
Then of course you have your Zombie Apocalypse crowd. As cool as it would be, I don’t really see it happening. Of course, that doesn’t mean it can’t. Oddly enough they’re the only ones that AREN’T giving us a date to be prepared. I’m not sure if we should worry or not, since they’re the most accurate about the end of the world: they don’t know!
So Religion can’t tell us the end of the world. Science can’t tell us the end of the world. Zombie Apocalypse is scheduled to happen whenever and people are freaking out about it.
Maybe we should take it as it is: a way to make money through movies and games(sorry Zombie guys), and a way to control the population. Please, please stop listening to the crazy people who swear they know when the world is going to end. They don’t. If they where so all knowing, they’d be able to fix some of the world’s problems or warn us about the horrible natural disasters that keep hitting the world, but they can’t, because they’re NOT all knowing.
The world isn’t going to end when you think it is. And if it does, I’ll apologize to you where ever we get sent when we all die. Be it Heaven, Hell, or just into non-being.

Gay rights.

Once again I was in Government. Today we watched Journeys with George. An actually interesting and funny movie, even if I’m not a Bush fan. Whatever. Not the point. My point is, when there were about 20 minutes left in class, a guy came on the screen with a sign that said “Vote Bush because gay people have too many rights.” My reaction: “WTF?! Isn’t this a free country?!” I was appalled. After all isn’t it in our constitution that ALL ME ARE CREATED EQUAL? So according to that guy, gays aren’t men or what? I mean, if you’re gonna say gays have too many rights, I guess women and blacks do too right? And so must men period, if we’re going by “all men are created equal”.
Seriously. How can you claim to represent a free country and try to take away a person’s rights due to their sexual preference, which is, btw, PERSONAL. It is no one’s business but what someone’s sexual preference but their own, someone they’re dating, and perhaps their friends. If someone at school or work is gay, how is that my business? Whether I know them or not? That’s like saying two people dating is my business. It’s not. It’s THEIR business. The two people dating. So what’s the difference if it’s two boys(not ok), two girls(ok when kissing, b/c its “hott”… wtf?), or a guy and a girl(ok)? There isn't one. except for the way we perceive it.
It’s still no one else’s business but the two people dating!
Just like it’s not our business if someone has a mental disorder. Are we taking their right’s away? No. Because it’s NONE of our business.
So why don’t we worry more about not discriminating based on something that’s personal. After all, would you want someone to judge you on something personal?

Gossip

How many times have you heard "Gossip's a sin" only to watch that person turn around a Gossip?
The whole "Gossip's a sin" thing has got to be one of the more ridiculous things I've ever heard. after all, you can't tell someone a story about something that happened without "Gossiping".
If I tell my best friend that I saw a girl kissing someone that isn't her boyfriend it's counted as gossip, but really, I'm just telling my friend what I saw. It's human nature to tell your friends what you saw or what you heard. Ok, so maybe what your heard isn't the truth, but if someone asks "Why isn't so and so at school?" and you heard she was pregnant(even if she isn't), is that gossip or just telling what you know? Especially if you say "i heard she is pregnant". It's not like you're saying she is, you're just saying that's what you heard. but does that mean you're spreading gossip? I don't really believe so. if you were to say "she is pregnant" then yes, you are spreading gossip, for you are telling a lie even if it is what you heard. you've just confirmed a lie. So next time before you say "She is" or "he is" think and see if you actually know this as a truth or not. it stops lies or "gossip".
And if I'm talking to my friend and I said "I got threw up this morning" someone might over hear and tell everyone I had morning sickness and then everyone starts to I'm pregnant, were they gossiping or just telling the truth as they knew it?

Hypocrisy

I was in Government, supposed to be writing an essay on how family, religion, gender, and education effect people’s political views when, while brainstorming, I realized something: Christians are some of the most hypocritical people in the world. I was raised without a religion and extremely liberal. Over the years, on my own, I’ve gone to Church and at one point I accepted God into my life.
I went to a Church for about two years before they drove me nuts and I stopped. Why did they drive me nuts? Because they preached conservatism but act differently. Most of these kids were raised Christian. Their parents go there and during church when their mommy and daddy are around they preach Godliness and act like “good” Christians “should”. When they’re not around their parents, they could pass for very liberal. More on that later.
The first time I went to this Church, I made “enemies”. Adults who didn’t like me because I was liberal and my mom went to the Unitarian Universalist Congregation of Tuscaloosa (which I currently attend with her). These parents immediately thought me “poisonous” and quoted scripture and such things to try and “save” me. Their children agreed.
That very Wednesday, those “good” Christian kids that had taken a stand against me were doing “un-Christian” things such as girls leaping into a guys arms and wrapping their legs around the guy’s waist (yes, I got in trouble for that once), guys pretending to be dating, couples being all over each other(I’m talking extreme PDA), etc. At the time I thought it was funny and I went along with everything. I closed my eyes to their hypocrisy because I didn’t see anything wrong with what we were doing.
Later that month I was talking to one of the guys who had been acting gay. I told him I had absolutely no problem with gays, I love my gay friends dearly and I believe that God does too. For I see nothing wrong with loving someone, no matter what their gender is. This guy I was talking to was shocked and gave me a long speech about how being gay is wrong, the Bible says so—he couldn’t back this up and has yet too. I was appalled. This boy was telling me my friends were going to Hell because they were gay, but he was going to Heaven with a heart filled with lies, hate, and prejudice. Acting gay is ok after all. Oh and if I didn’t ask for forgiveness I would go to Hell too. I almost punched him. I was beyond pissed.
When he then went on to tell me that abortion, in all shapes and forms is wrong and you will go to Hell then too I was even more pissed. According to him, an emotionally unstable girl who was raped should have the child. Even if the pregnancy and birth would most likely lead to the girl’s suicide. Its murder to kill a fetus that has no soul yet since it’s still a freaking cell mass. And murder is not ok. Even if it kills you, you must have the child or you are going against God. Yes, I agree that abortion should not be used as birth control, that is sick and wrong, but if it’s unhealthy for the girl, emotionally or physically, the girl is just going to get extremely messed up. But we can’t go against God.
Oh wait, we don’t have PROOF that God is against any of this. We have the Bible right? Ok, that was written by men, and translated by men, and can be taken and manipulated to say what you want, kind of like the “Necessary and Proper Clause” in the U.S. Constitution. Funny how that works isn’t it?
The final thing though was when I realized just how hypocritical these people are. I stubbed my toe and said “shit” in Church and got a lecture about not cussing in Church by a kid I’m pretty sure smokes pot. I’m pretty sure God is going to be more offended by someone preaching scripture and then smoking pot and lying about it than me saying “Shit” by accident after I stub my toe.
So before you come and tell me that I’m going to Hell for writing this and start quoting scripture to me, think about it. I wrote this because I want people to stop being so close minded and stop hating everything before they think it through. This world needs more love for crying out loud. I believe I’m going to Heaven if there is such a place, because I try and love, I try as hard as I can to let go of the hate, prejudice and lies. No I am not perfect, and I will never claim to be. I’m human after all. But don’t come to me with hate and prejudice. Please. That’s just going wrong after all.

Thank you for reading this.

Religion and all that.

So I was just on facebook reading people's notes about how the bible proves that God exists and the Big Bang Theory conflicts with the Law of Conservation of Mass.... it just mad me really sad to think there are people out there that will tell you a theory is wrong because of a man made law, but God exsits because of the bible. Now, I'm not saying I don't believe in God. I do really. But The Big Bang Theory states that the Universe already contained all the matter it has now, it just expanded. and it's a THEORY. it can not be proven.
Whatever, what really gets me though is that the Bible, which was written by men about 300 years after Christ's death from stories passed down over the generations, is taken to be true. It is true. and it's proof. Period.
Really? are you that close minded that you're not going to even take the time to make sure that what you're talking about is true?
Ok, you're probably lost, let me explain. The person I'm talking about said that the Big Bang Theory conflicts with the law of conservation of mass because the law states that matter can not be created or destroyed and according to this kid, the big bang theory says that matter just appeared.
That's why I asked if he is really that close minded. If you're going to quote the Bible as truth and say this is why there is God, you've obviously researched what you need to "prove" this and you've read the Bible. So maybe you should go and research the Big Bang Theory. It's just a hint.
The sad thing is there are alot of people out there like that. That take something they can't prove is true to prove something they believe and refuse to listen to or research the other side.
This whole world is made up of these close minded people...
I'm sure no one really cares about my opinion, and that the people who really need to hear this aren't going to read this or listen but I would suggest if you do read this, make sure you're not one of those people.
So the next time you decided to argue a point like crazy and not listen, try and open your mind, and listen to what others have to say.

This blog was not ment to offend anyone and if it did I'm truly sorry.

a few old poems

A Hope

Every day I look at you,
I hide the pain behind a mask.
I put up walls to keep you out,
I put on an act of pure happiness.
Hoping that one day you’ll see through it.
Praying one day you’ll come to me,
Knowing I’ll wait until you do.

My friends all think I’m jealous,
Of this slutty little bitch,
But I would say that I just hope I’m wrong about her now.
That she would never break your heart,
But deep inside, I know I’m right and all that is,
Is just that, a hope.

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Blinded by Her.

And as hot tears pour down my face,
I look in the mirror and laugh,
I’ve been through all this,
To save myself from the pain.
Yet here is sit,
Alone,
The tears pouring down, the pain still the same,
Because no matter what,
She’ll win,
It’s HER he’ll always believe.
It doesn’t matter what proof I have,
Because he can’t see,
He’s so damn blinded by HER.

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I Had to Turn Away

I had to turn away.
I had to say good-bye
My heart couldn’t survive,
History repeating itself.
I know you said you cared,
But I can’t take this game anymore.
It hurts so much to walk away,
but I know the pain I would go through if I stayed.
You went and called me stupid,
But to my face you pretended to understand.

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If That's not Love

Up all night,
Up all day,
All the time I think of you.

Wishing you were there to hold me.
Wishing you were there to want me.

I told you I loved you.
I told you the truth.

Two years ago I screwed things up.
Two years later I wish I could try again.

Some say you love me,
Some say you hate me.
I wish you would just tell me.

You came to me when I called for you.
You were there when I most needed you.

If that’s not love,
Tell me what is.

It was you I called for when I was in pain.
It was you I wanted to hold me hand.

If that’s not love,
Tell me what is.

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It's...

It’s when she knows,
Who and what he is,
It’s when she says she’s over him,
But secretly she yearns for him.

It’s when her friends all turn away,
For some slut who’s there today.
When she hates the world,
Because sin invaded her Church.

It’s then she turns to God,
And opens up her heart.
The tears pour down her face,
As God takes away the pain.

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It's Been Four Months.

It’s been four months,
Since you took my heart,
And tore it apart.

It’s been four months,
Since I first realized,
Who you were.

It’s been four months,
Since you first started,
Your game.
Playing with my feelings,
Playing for your gain.

It’s been four months,
But still I sit,
While you plague my mind.
You had your fun,
But now its done.

All I can say is,
I’m through,
With you.

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This, at Least, is Real

Its that feeling when she look into his eyes,
And for those few seconds,
The whole world stands still,
And for that moment she thinks he’s hers,
Though she knows he’ll never be.

It’s her that looks away,
As she remembers the look on his face,
When he looked into the crowds,
That smile lit up his face.

It wasn’t to her,
For she was standing to far away,
It was to some other girl.

She looks back at him,
A sad expression on her face,
But he’s too busy looking the other way.

She’ll wait around for hours,
Just to she him walk by and say “Hey”.
Sometimes she isn’t sure he notices,
But she figures he can’t be that oblivious.

The pain that comes with the love,
Keeps her going every day,
Makes her know,
This, at least, is real.

He doesn’t know the struggle,
That she deals with everyday,
As she debates whether to fight,
Or give up and walk away.

The war inside that’s raging,
Get worse with every passing day,
Especially when she sees him,
And his smile melts her heart away.

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Too Deep

You stare into his eyes,
So beautiful before.
You look at him and think,
“Oh no! i’m in love with a manwhore.”
You friends all think you’re crazy,
They look at you and say,
“He’s not what you’re looking for.
You’ll just get left by him feeling like some cheap whore,
He’s dangerous not the stable guy you want,
So turn around and leave,
Before you fall in too deep.”
You shake your head and laugh bitterly,
Know it’s too late,
You look at him again and know,
You’ve already fallen too deep.

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What if

What if I told you,
I loved you.
What if I told you,
I wanted you to be mine?
What if I told you,
I’d wait until the end of time?
What if I told you,
I hated you for who you made me become.
What if I told you.
How I really felt?
What if I told you,
How confused I really am?
What if I told you,
I need you?
How would you repond?

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Young Love

I’ve fallen in love with someone,
I know I can never be with.
My heart explodes with the pain.

My friends all tell me he’s not worth it,
Not worth the tears that came,
When I saw him with her, the slut I will not name.

I know one day she’ll hurt him,
Make HiM feel the pain.
And even if he comes to me,
I’d swallow and turn away.

I know I can never date him,
My pride just won’t let me.
I’d only smile sadly,
And turn away to cry.

The tears don’t actually start falling,
Till I’m all alone at night.
I scream into the darkness,
Wishing he could hear me.

Wishing he could see me,
Knowing that he never will.

Anything that could have been is over,
Our friendship is sibling like now.
I’m just his “twin-sister”,
Not ever a girlfriend.
He’d never look at me now.

But deep inside I know,
It’s better this way.
Our friendship will last forever,
Unlike young love,
That goes away.

blah.

Why is it that no matter what you do,
No matter what you say,
it still hurts anyway?
i swear.
i don't know if he knows,
i don't know if he cares,
but that's really what makes it even more painful.
knowing what i know.
caring so much about him.
and every night i sit,
my stomach clenches in pain,
my nose tingles,
my eyes burn,
and hot tears pour down my face.
burning a path.
but he'll never know.
he'll look at me and see,
someone getting sicker and sicker by the day.
but it's not like he'll know why.
i suppose no one but me will.
but i'll push through.
maybe one day i'll be healthy again.
but not for a while.
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